A Student's Prayer

nobody understands how i feel. why would anybody care. they got their own stuff to worry about. nobody really wants to work together. it's a shame.

A Student's Prayer Creator of all things, true source of Light and Wisdom, lofty source of all Being, graciously let a ray of Your Brilliance penetrate into the darkness of my understanding and take from me the double darkness in which I have been born, sin and ignorance. Give me a sharp sense of understanding , a retentive memory, and the ability to grasp things correctly and fundamentally. Grant me the talent of being exact in my explanations, and the ability to express myself with thoroughness and charm. Point out the beginning, direct the progress, help in the completion. Through Christ our Lord. St. Thomas Aquinas

hehe the second prayer is catchy and has a sense of humor and probably relates to me more.

Bliss

sometimes i wish i can time travel and relive it again

^.~

Guilt

whenever he calls (he rarely calls me but can be considered frequent compared to last time I was away), i would feel a deep ache in my gut. Guilt. do I have any reason to feel this way?

DREAMS

when you find a dream in your heart. don't ever let it go. because dreams are seeds from which beautiful tomorrow grows

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whenever, he has exams, i feel like I'm having exams too.. that is just too many exams for me to handle. i miss the times when we could go out whenever and not be worried about not studying. being in 3rd year is quite tiring and thinking bout being a house officer can be terrifying sometimes.

kids..

right now, almost everyone is going back to kuching to enter the faculty's sports event. unfortunately im not one of them. cos i have my end of posting on monday. oh well. i rmmber last year's event. i entered futsal (i never play futsal before) and netball (err...not my kind of thing). surprisingly my team won futsal (because my other team players were good) pejam kelip mata it has already been four months in this town. I'm not expecting much for this posting. Im just praying that a miracle will happen this monday and tuesday. hopefully next posting which is Surgery will be better. Paediatrics is a stressful posting. just like kids, it is unpredictable. i was practically lost in this posting. but i got to meet patients and mothers and grandmothers that touched my heart. kids that have cerebral palsy, Down syndrome, and even premature babies require attention almost 24/7 . heck even perfectly healthy children do. it is a tough job being a guardian of a child. it may seem that the child is totally dependent on his/her caretaker. but in reality the caretaker would be somewhat disable without the child. i have to get back to studying now

blah

it's a week before my end of posting. and i'm cracking like an egg. i remember the feeling during my first EOP exam. waiting for your turn in the cramp waiting room is the worst feeling ever. feeling of impending doom. need to pray n pray.