Patient Care

this morning I went to the Female Surgical Ward to attend a bedside teaching. while waiting for the lecturer to come, I approached a patient in her 50s lying on her bed. She told me that she injured her head and her loin area because she fell off a bed in a clinic. it is really unfortunate for her, going to a clinic to seek treatment but ended up hurting herself more. I didn't find her case interesting but she certainly was. when i was about to leave, she gently hold my right hand in between hers preventing me from leaving too soon . she told me in Malay to belajar baik-baik and jadi doctor baik with sincerity in her caring eyes like I was her daughter. I felt all sort of things in that moment. I felt awkward receiving such err... motherly affection from a total stranger. Part of me thought that maybe she really bumped her head quite hard. but i was probably just not use to such kindness from strangers. we're just brought up to be careful with people; strangers or even loved ones that I really didn't expect such a kind gesture. She really gave me hope that maybe this human race might be able to survive after all. God bless her.

Struggle

i don't know how much longer i can hold on. is it really worth it? i used to not have doubts

A Student's Prayer

nobody understands how i feel. why would anybody care. they got their own stuff to worry about. nobody really wants to work together. it's a shame.

A Student's Prayer Creator of all things, true source of Light and Wisdom, lofty source of all Being, graciously let a ray of Your Brilliance penetrate into the darkness of my understanding and take from me the double darkness in which I have been born, sin and ignorance. Give me a sharp sense of understanding , a retentive memory, and the ability to grasp things correctly and fundamentally. Grant me the talent of being exact in my explanations, and the ability to express myself with thoroughness and charm. Point out the beginning, direct the progress, help in the completion. Through Christ our Lord. St. Thomas Aquinas

hehe the second prayer is catchy and has a sense of humor and probably relates to me more.

Bliss

sometimes i wish i can time travel and relive it again

^.~

Guilt

whenever he calls (he rarely calls me but can be considered frequent compared to last time I was away), i would feel a deep ache in my gut. Guilt. do I have any reason to feel this way?

DREAMS

when you find a dream in your heart. don't ever let it go. because dreams are seeds from which beautiful tomorrow grows

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whenever, he has exams, i feel like I'm having exams too.. that is just too many exams for me to handle. i miss the times when we could go out whenever and not be worried about not studying. being in 3rd year is quite tiring and thinking bout being a house officer can be terrifying sometimes.