homesick

i wanna go home right now. tell me where can i find Dorothy's shoes. im not sure whether Im really homesick, I just dont wanna be here right now.

yeah i postponed the 30 day blog challenge. like anyone reads it

Day 6- your celebrity crush

this post I can't do because I don't have a celebrity crush right now. I've passed this phase quite some time ago. In 3 weeks I'll be having my exam. I dunno what i have been doing in surgical posting all this while. feel so lost and dumb. wasted. it'll be the saddest Christmas ever

Day 5- when was the last time u did something for the first time

well I've only done it once. it was somewhere in August I think. I was so nervous. I was excited. I have been waiting for it for quite some time. I know that it would hurt but it would be worthwhile. and no it wasn't sex. hahaha I conducted delivery of a baby. well not really conducted. more of assisting and learning. I went in the delivery room and saw that a mother whose cervix was about 7 -8 cm dilated was just brought into the delivery room. once the nurse had given me permission, I got ready the trolley and the equipments that should be placed on it on standby. I helped the student nurse to count the number of contractions every errrr....was it half an hour. i cant rmmber hee~ in between, I gave some back rub (a technique I learnt from another student nurse) to help relieve the mom's pain and giving her some encouragement. before I know it the baby was crowning, and the staff nurse came in to the rescue. i placed my hands where the nurse instructed me and together with her pulled the baby's head out. once it was confirmed that there was no cord around the baby's neck the whole body came out easily. the baby was crying which is good. i clamp the umbilical cord. I was so nervous. i think my body's reaction to the whole baby coming out of the birth canal was so slow that only when the baby was out my heart was thumping and my hands shaking. I took a syringe to take blood sample from the cord. I totally hold it the wrong way together with the cord. If it wasn't for the nurse who reminded me to not hold the cord, I would have prick my finger too if I went too deep. surely enough with my hands shaking i put the needle into the umbilical vein and went straight through the whole cord and hit the bedding -.- i was like oh no so stupid. i hope nobody saw me did that. before i knew it, a nurse was laughing and shouting at the top of her voice "HAHAHAH SAMPAI KENA TILAM!!" i was like so -.- but I didn't mind much. It was funny, I would have laughed too if I wasn't so scared. then I took out the placenta using the controlled cord traction. before doing that we need to look for signs that the placenta has loosen up from its attachment site such as oozing of blood from the vagina, lengthening of the cord and rising of the fundus of the uterus which can be felt by feeling the abdomen. once the placenta was out, i checked it for any signs that there are some missing parts that could be left behind. once everything was done, I helped the mom into a new set of clothing and sent her baby and her to the postnatal ward. Her baby was perfectly normal and it was a girl. I told the father that he just had a baby girl. however, he seemed disappointed as he was hoping for a boy since their first child was a girl. he should have seen his wife in labour and realised that having a boy or girl really doesn't matter. It's a miracle that his wife was able to push something like a watermelon through a very small canal and both watermelon and her survived.

Day 4- Idea of a perfect date

okay so I'm half an hour late in doing this. cos i had to study first and go to secret recipe . well about two years ago, I had the idea of a perfect date down to every single detail, although I can't rmmber all now. first he has to pick me up and bring me to eat! it cant be any kind of food. It has to be made by him. we would be enjoying our meal under a tree in a beautiful park or at a beach. there has to be tall Portuguese egg tarts too!(funny I've only eaten those made by chinese Msians). well basically a picnic. however the weather has to be perfect. not too hot and not raining either. then we would take a stroll somewhere and just talk about anything. we HAVE to play kite too! what's a date without flying a kite. then, we would have ice-cream. well that was the rough idea I had. unfortunately Surprisingly, the perfect date didn't have all that. I only needed YOU! :-)

btw, I learnt how to draw a line across words! haha. always wondered how people did that *noob*

Live in the moment that lasts a lifetime

we couldn't be more different

when I smile, you frown

when you frown, I smile

when I'm awake, you're just about to lay your head on the pillow

when I'm sound asleep, you're working as hard as an ant

sometimes you make me so angry I feel like i need to punch something or bawl my eyes out

sometimes you make me feel so lovely, I wish time just stop right then

usually you're MIA but that's okay I'm used to it

we couldn't be more different

I've been told countless time that I'm just wasting my time

but that's okay because whenever i look at you, it never fail to make me think that it's worth every second

doesn't matter the outcome. I'll handle it later.

day 3 recent activity

okay so i skipped day 2. I was kinda busy and I dont really have a nice photo of my family where everyone is in it. so today is day 3 . my recent activity would be going to the clinic and seeing some patients. Me n iqa stayed longer and managed to see a case of hernia, hepatomegaly (enlarged liver) and skin tag and some goiter. earlier today I presented a case of intestinal obstruction and it was a disaster. i suck at doing physical examination. I gotta practise more. ok i gtg now. nothing really inspiring to blog about.

30-day blog challenge from Deanona

so im totally bored right now, although grateful cos I'm at home and not at that place. so I"m gonna try to do this 30-day blog challenge I found here http://deanona-89.blogspot.com/2010/11/30-day-blog-challenge.html

today's challenge would be 15 facts about me. so here goes.

1. I used to be fat like around 12-15kg heavier than I am now. having trouble losing weight? Join a medical school. you'll be on your path to anorexia and enlightenment within your second year

2. When I'm stressed out I feel like spending money. Well not all the time, only when I can

3. I'm eating my mom's pasta right now

4. When I was a kid, I thought I was a princess

5. I love to eat egg tarts especially those really tall ones, I dunno how to describe

6. I don't know how I do it but I tend to break/spoil things easily. I guess I'm very rough with things but definitely not with people. My bro says that it's heroes power and it works best on electrical stuff

7. I have naturally curly hair but now I have unnaturally straight hair

8. Im supposed to be studying but I love to procrastinate.

9. I love peppermint ice-cream

10. My favourite birthday cake was an ice-cream cake when I was nine. somehow i remembered it to be so heavenly

11. some people close to me thinks I'm bossy. I might i have the potential to be a queen control but something is holding me back

12. I never fall for people of the same kind.

13. I fell in love with New Zealand when looking at a calendar when I was about 10

14. I'll be spending Christmas all by myself this year.

15. I'm a fun-loving person. I like to go out and see the world and experience it.

Phew finally!