Live in the moment that lasts a lifetime

we couldn't be more different

when I smile, you frown

when you frown, I smile

when I'm awake, you're just about to lay your head on the pillow

when I'm sound asleep, you're working as hard as an ant

sometimes you make me so angry I feel like i need to punch something or bawl my eyes out

sometimes you make me feel so lovely, I wish time just stop right then

usually you're MIA but that's okay I'm used to it

we couldn't be more different

I've been told countless time that I'm just wasting my time

but that's okay because whenever i look at you, it never fail to make me think that it's worth every second

doesn't matter the outcome. I'll handle it later.

day 3 recent activity

okay so i skipped day 2. I was kinda busy and I dont really have a nice photo of my family where everyone is in it. so today is day 3 . my recent activity would be going to the clinic and seeing some patients. Me n iqa stayed longer and managed to see a case of hernia, hepatomegaly (enlarged liver) and skin tag and some goiter. earlier today I presented a case of intestinal obstruction and it was a disaster. i suck at doing physical examination. I gotta practise more. ok i gtg now. nothing really inspiring to blog about.

30-day blog challenge from Deanona

so im totally bored right now, although grateful cos I'm at home and not at that place. so I"m gonna try to do this 30-day blog challenge I found here http://deanona-89.blogspot.com/2010/11/30-day-blog-challenge.html

today's challenge would be 15 facts about me. so here goes.

1. I used to be fat like around 12-15kg heavier than I am now. having trouble losing weight? Join a medical school. you'll be on your path to anorexia and enlightenment within your second year

2. When I'm stressed out I feel like spending money. Well not all the time, only when I can

3. I'm eating my mom's pasta right now

4. When I was a kid, I thought I was a princess

5. I love to eat egg tarts especially those really tall ones, I dunno how to describe

6. I don't know how I do it but I tend to break/spoil things easily. I guess I'm very rough with things but definitely not with people. My bro says that it's heroes power and it works best on electrical stuff

7. I have naturally curly hair but now I have unnaturally straight hair

8. Im supposed to be studying but I love to procrastinate.

9. I love peppermint ice-cream

10. My favourite birthday cake was an ice-cream cake when I was nine. somehow i remembered it to be so heavenly

11. some people close to me thinks I'm bossy. I might i have the potential to be a queen control but something is holding me back

12. I never fall for people of the same kind.

13. I fell in love with New Zealand when looking at a calendar when I was about 10

14. I'll be spending Christmas all by myself this year.

15. I'm a fun-loving person. I like to go out and see the world and experience it.

Phew finally!

Patient Care

this morning I went to the Female Surgical Ward to attend a bedside teaching. while waiting for the lecturer to come, I approached a patient in her 50s lying on her bed. She told me that she injured her head and her loin area because she fell off a bed in a clinic. it is really unfortunate for her, going to a clinic to seek treatment but ended up hurting herself more. I didn't find her case interesting but she certainly was. when i was about to leave, she gently hold my right hand in between hers preventing me from leaving too soon . she told me in Malay to belajar baik-baik and jadi doctor baik with sincerity in her caring eyes like I was her daughter. I felt all sort of things in that moment. I felt awkward receiving such err... motherly affection from a total stranger. Part of me thought that maybe she really bumped her head quite hard. but i was probably just not use to such kindness from strangers. we're just brought up to be careful with people; strangers or even loved ones that I really didn't expect such a kind gesture. She really gave me hope that maybe this human race might be able to survive after all. God bless her.

Struggle

i don't know how much longer i can hold on. is it really worth it? i used to not have doubts

A Student's Prayer

nobody understands how i feel. why would anybody care. they got their own stuff to worry about. nobody really wants to work together. it's a shame.

A Student's Prayer Creator of all things, true source of Light and Wisdom, lofty source of all Being, graciously let a ray of Your Brilliance penetrate into the darkness of my understanding and take from me the double darkness in which I have been born, sin and ignorance. Give me a sharp sense of understanding , a retentive memory, and the ability to grasp things correctly and fundamentally. Grant me the talent of being exact in my explanations, and the ability to express myself with thoroughness and charm. Point out the beginning, direct the progress, help in the completion. Through Christ our Lord. St. Thomas Aquinas

hehe the second prayer is catchy and has a sense of humor and probably relates to me more.

Bliss

sometimes i wish i can time travel and relive it again

^.~