Desperation.

My finals is next week on Monday till Wednesday. this exam is really important because if i fail I'd have to repeat the entire year. I'm nowhere near in completing my revision and definitely can't, not within this short amount of time. Gosh. I was feeling really stressed out just now and felt like it's not such a bad thing if i do repeat. Yup i felt like giving up. but I'm feeling a whole load better and there's still hope. Hope that what i study will come out. It's all bout exam strategies now. I hope it works out for me. Dear readers, please pray along with me that I may pass this exam and remain sane. Amen!

Disorder

I'm having exams this week. Monday stupid TMX paper followed by the real exams on endocrine on Wednesday till Friday and finally First Aid on the following MOnday. Im starting to get stressed out because im not stress about it. I'm too relaxed. I have no drive to study. HOW? Hmm... like Melissa says I have to force myself. Okay I'm going to study again. I'm still stuck at Thyroid Gland. Still got the pancreas, adrenal n parathyroid gland to cover. I always get lazy or distracted right before the exams. Wth. I KNOW!! i just found something to make me study now. My beloved sister is coming back from KL on Thursday night for a week. Therefore, I don't wanna burn the midnight oil when she's around. Must do now. Toodles.

Teachers always say that they are no dumb questions...

but i proved them wrong. Today we had a visit to rescue 999 Jabatan Pertahanan Awam as part of our first aid class. They showed us this really cool truck with all the rescue equipments. n i pointed to a thing with two taps. I was wondering why a cool truck with car-chopping equipments would have taps also. So i asked one of the volunteers personally( thank God for that) what's that for? And he answered, "Dik, tu utk cuci tangan la". What's that? Yeah i thought i saw a blond streak in the mirror this morning and i too wonder how i got into medical school and still surviving. nyawa2 ikan but still alive. hee..

you know it's gonna be the time of the month when...

1. you can't stop eating.
2. you get irritable easily by the smallest things.
3. your oil glands decide to oversecrete
4. your attention span gets even less than the usual 5 seconds.
   
5. you feel sleepy all the time and bedtime feels like 8pm.
6. it's either that or you can't sleep at all.
7. you feel sad, happy and angry all within one minute.
8. you just feel like isolating yourself from the rest of the world.
9. you can't stop eating.
10. your weighing scale says you've put on a couple of killos @#$@!%$# but you swear it's just broken.
11. your lower limbs feel like you have joined a marathon which lasted for 3 days.
12. you can't stop whining, shouting. grumbling.
13. you can't function.
14. Did i mention can't stop eating and pants getting tighter
    

these are the reasons why i really think that it should be holidays on pms-ing days and girls should be excused form quizzes, exam, work for at least one week every month.

Bones, Muscles and Joints

I've been meaning to blog about this a long time ago after finishing my fourth block but now it's already the 4th week of the fifth block. But oh well, the fourth block was called musculoskeletal block where we learnt about the bones.

Introducing Mr. Skeleton. What's your secret to your slim figure? hehe
whoops. caught on camera.

We also learn bout muscles. If i were to strip off my layer of skin, this is how i would look like.


Well sort of la. We also celebrated Chinese New Year in our faculty.

With Melissa the AJK hadiah
With the girls

With Terence, the Mr Ox.

Melissa and I also danced for Ponggal Night in main campus. But I'll keep that story for another day because i need to seriously study since i didn't study the entire weekend!! I've been such a lazy fat arse this block. I really need to be rajin again.

Hopefully this picture will inspire me to be more hardworking. hehe ^^

Sink or Swim?

She hears fingers typing in the background

Sounds of deceit and lies

The plucking of guitar

Makes no music in her ears

Musical piano notes fill the air

Does little in enlightening her

For she is struggling to breathe

Drowning in the depth of waters

In the ocean of sorrow.

Where there is light, there is life.

I just came back from cell group meeting which just ended right before curfew. I almost didn't go because I was sleeping till 10 minutes before i left. For some strange reason, I decided to go although I was really close to continuing my sleep. However, I'm glad that I when because today's discussion was quite interesting and enlightening. Today's theme was Light. We played a game of treasure hunt where we were supposed to find glow in the dark stars which had pieces of paper attached to them. finally we had to join the pieces of paper which had questions relating to light and darkness together with bible verses. Mind you that we had to find the stars in an unlit room and they were strategically placed in places where their glow would not be obvious to the untrained eye. I remember feeling lost in the dark because I really couldn't find any stars and after awhile i felt bored with no sense of direction. But when i finally found a star, I finally found some excitement. But it was only temporary because the paper attached to it was meant for another group and the star was bound to lose its shine. I only felt better when the light was switched on. I think i can relate the feeling i felt while playing this game with what was trying to be delivered by Grace. The only way to feel secured is to make sure that the light is always shining and not let things block it, overshadowing you which may mislead you.
John 12:35-36
Jesus answered, "The light will be among you a little longer. continue on your way while you have the light, so that darkness will not come upon you; for the one who walks in the dark does not know where he is going. Believe in the light then, while you have it, so that you will be the people of the light.